fit...and fat?

yes, it's true.
studies show that it is possible to be in shape and overweight.
exercise doesn't necessarily mean one is safe from cardiovascular disease.
read about it here.

and i thought i was smart...

i just watched this fox news clip about a girl that is 18 years old and a college professor!

i can't imagine going to college at the age of ten. this girl already has a Ph.D... wow!

i hate being here

i hate being here.

if i could tell anything to anyone right now and there not be repercussions for my actions, i would thank my roommates for showing me a perfect picture of what the worst friends in the world look like.

how do i love someone that continually does not love me back and continually hurts me? i guess i need to be using agape love...loving them and not expect to get anything out of it. i wanted to take her to sushi this week, but i chickened out. i have so many things to say to her, but i think my breath would be useless if i said it to her. "if your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink. in doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head, and the LORD will reward you." -prov. 25:21. this is what i know i should do...i wish my conflict styles weren't avoidance or accommodating. this would be easier if i were competing or collaborating...anything except avoiding the issue. i need to ask God to give me the strength to do something nice for my enemy. my frustrations tire me out. i think about it all day long every day. it wears on my body and i can't sleep at night, it wears on me mentally because i want a solution to the problem, but most of all it wears deeply on my soul.

my heart hurts immensely.

i pray i can forgive. i pray that i will see the end of this valley and be able to stand on the mountain. i pray i can live.

it is so beautiful outside!

i did a 12 mile run today through the country and also through the city...people walking around EL, sitting on patios drinking coffee, reading books, enjoying the company of each other and the sunshine. the sun shining and a slight breeze made it oh so perfect. i couldn't stop smiling as i ran. i got to the end, and it was so nice i wanted to keep going, but my legs were starting to ache.

my heart yearns for summer.
my heart yearns for change.
my heart years to leave. to explore. to go.

i am learning to be satisfied in the Lord.
i just wish problems and conflict would go away. it doesn't. it's part of life and living through it and growing through the storm. friends are lost, and friends are made. it's a journey.